Frank Auerbach

I was on Pinterest the other day and found Frank Auerbach's paintings.  I've seen his work before, but on this particular day I just feel in love.  His work speaks to my soul, a connection that is quiet, but brings about amazing inspiration.

I love the brush strokes, and how each mark brings together such an intensity of feelings.  Without words he creates such a powerful message.

I'm working on a new painting, but taking my time with it, so I thought to add another artists work for your enjoyment.

Beautiful!!!

White Picket Fence

I've been exploring the points of views of others for which, for some reason, I have made true for myself.  I could go into a long commentary about the ideals surrounded around women, but this point of view has been digested and regurgitated for far to all.

This painting was sitting for awhile, not knowing what it truly wanted to be until this morning.  I like it when the idea is not there and then there, purely in this fleeting moment the idea, paint, tape, and title comes together.  It was time to be in this world.

The title "White Picket Fence" is about all the points of views that we've claimed as truth.  We've tried so hard to fit ourselves into molds that don't belong to ourselves and when we don't fit into a fixed ideal then a vicious cycle of self loathing, depression, and hopelessness can occur.

I dedicate this painting to all who have struggled with being there authentic selves, broken out from their own white picket fences and are now living a life that is truly theirs to claim.

mixed media on canvas
24" x 36"
2013

The Adventures of SHE

I'm starting a new series of paintings, inspired by SHE.  The collective ideal of what it is to be a women.  My new wooden figure is my spokeswoman and will be taking us on a ride within, while walking away from judgements that keep us in limitations to who we really are.  My next painting will be coming soon....

Division

We all have these thoughts that cause suffering, but if we could only sit behide these thoughts and really witness the drama we have created.  This simple act would release us, so that we can become who we really are.

I sold this painting about 4 years ago, but it still lingers in the silence of my soul.


I sit watching,
only watching,
not judging,
just watching.

Then like the ocean caressing the shore,
my thoughts slip back into consciousness.
I truly let go.

acrylic on canvas
24" x 24"
2009

Helping One another

Christmas is just on the horizon!  I work in retail, so the store is busy with people buying for friends and family.  While this season can be fun or stressful for some, other people are dealing with events that are hard for most of us to imagine.  I was at work today and met Emma's Mom who has travelled to Victoria to look for her missing daughter.  Emma has now been gone for 25 days.  I wanted to post this picture for all you that live in Victoria or around this area.  I would love it if everyone that visits this site could send a prayer for Emma for her safe return.

When the past exhales

A co-worker has recently left for India and I saw some of her pictures that bought memories flooding back like it was yesterday.  I visited India 2 years ago, a time that changed me on so many levels.  I could feel my memories of happiness, but also of a time where my heart shattered into pieces.  I felt a loss, an emptiness that has never really healed.   My life is so wonderful on so many levels, but still I feel the dust of India floating through my veins.

I sit in silence,
watching myself,
knowing that my perceptions,
are mine to own.

I now go deeper within,
sitting quietly,
allowing the tears to fall,
and seeing the sun rise in the horizon. 

Counting down the days to Christmas

I have never really got to excited about Christmas as an adult, but for some reason I love it this year.  I've opened 13 days of my chocolate advent calendar and yes, I have also eaten all the chocolates.

 I love taking walks around the neighbor at night looking at people's lights.  I try not to stare right in their window for this may look a little like peeping into their personal space, but so far no one has run out after me.  I try not to wear my black hoodie when out at night.  I really don't need any attention from the police.  

I haven't yet got my picture taken with santa, but this is my photo from last year.  Isn't he the cutest!!!

So far, this season has been the best.  I wish everyone a wonderful holiday season!!!!!

Many blessings,
Suzanne